My freshman year is going to end soon.

Things are going to change again. Im going to move out of hall soon, I will need to find new friends in school after specialisation and Im probably gonna quit tchouk.

It's funny how I always long to search for a constant but circumstances just demand for change.

I cant help but grapple with an idea that maybe there's no "the One".
How do we know exactly? We dont. We just find someone who seems like one we don't mind loving.
It would probably be coincidental that we are theirs too.

A few years ago Ive decided to be more independent, and to be stronger, in view of my poor heart who cant take anymore blows LOL. These few years, this shelter Ive built is strong and stable. But it gets lonely at times. The thing is, I dont mind trading the possible heartaches relationships bring about for this lonely but safe shelter.

It bothered me a little when E told me that Im gonna die lonely. Im quite sure that I <i>will</i> find my constant. And he'll be with me.

Recently, there's this quote which stirred something in me a little:

Human emotion, it can contain illogical conflict.