I have a very bad habit to fit people and moments into songs. That's why I have a heartbreaking playlist not only because how sad the lyrics or melodies are.

We asked our double bass teacher once "why do people listen to classical music?". And his reply was simple."Once you get to an age, these pop lyrics are only so shallow. It can't describe accurately how you're feeling anymore"

It's true. But I found a way to beat that I think.

I etch my memories and feelings that I secretly allow into these specific songs. Stayed away from them for a long period of time. Now that we're all in university, everybody seems to like rewinding and playing back all these songs.

And this automatically does a playback. All the pain, regrets, joy coming back one by one.

Especially you dear. I've been missing you these few weeks ever since that song was played somewhere. I really didnt know what I've lost. It only struck me recently why you might have asked me to listen to this song. And this just brought about a mini heartbreak again.

And after you, I lost someone else again. Both of you, I was too late to realise. And both of you didnt give me a chance to do something about it.

At least both of you are happy although I cant help feeling sad that Im not part of it. But I'll take it as a lesson learnt. I hope I wont lose another person like how I lost the both of you. Not again.